Melancholic Thespian

September 26, 2006
Caught in the act.
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Caught in the act.

Its hard to pretend something your not.(not someone)

let me give you short example from my board mate.
when we are in our room we tend to speak "loud" "screaming" If you know what I mean.
Last Monday my friends parents arrived here in cebu to buy something. Days before that
we were already briefed on how to act and handle ourselves.That is not a problem with me
because I'm used to the straight crowd. Lets just say that he spilled his own beans.

Unintended we are grouped on our necks when we try to be somebody we are not.
lets just say that we make that a habit and a routine to speak or act that way.
Even if he ( my board mate) is saying that I'm acting kinda awkward, its doesn't show.
My only glitch is that I tend to be conio? But does that mean I'm queer?
He even acted queer in front of his parents..( unintentionally). Well lets just say that
he needs to face his demons already. I think that he is just on the closet, hiding and
pretending to play with toy cars and guns and fantasize of playing house and barbies in
pinks skirts.( Just expounding)

But pretending sometimes could be satisfying. It satisfies the urges that cant be made
into reality. The Innuendos we are destined to take are being resided because of the things
or situations that restrict us. But when can we spill out all the hatred in the world?
as what I said I'm a person with unexpected moods, an hour wont pass without changing moods.
Frankly speaking I can attest that there are a lot of promising new discoveries of freedom
within reach. But what keeps us in the closet?

I asked myself that question so many times.
Why not accept? why not be free? why be restricted?
Our love ones tells us that we are precious , we are special and all that we do they will
accepted.

NO way!!! Hell no what will happen to me if they find out?

Heard that line before? sounds familiar? and do you think that your the only one facing the dilemma?
To stand up on your own shoes will help you boost up on what ever is keeping you stagnated.

Keep me away from tempting my self to doing the things I might regret for the rest of my life.

GOsh!! that's line is so over used, I can fairly remember every "corny" Tagalog movies" trying
to characterize that spill.

They tend to give us more fantasies and they give us false hopes, they make us cry because of
the touching crying scenes, makes us feel good on the " feel good lines".
Now lets apply that to reality..

BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!>>>>^*@(^*(^#*^@#*)^@#)^#)@&) { reality CheCK!!!!}

Hello does that ring a bell, thats why so many people patronize those junks because ,they get their
hearts desires on this crap. If you say its not true? then try asking yourself and ask so many
others desperado’s to catch reality with their bare palms. ( and only knowing it got away).

They say I'm Frank????

I am…..

They say I'm rude

—– I'm not…. just frank.

If your a weakling you’ll be on the sides crying and pretending nothing ever happens.

IF your strong you can fight back.

If your hiding you can’t be yourself.

If your out you can be what ever your hearts desire.

But what I learn from all this hiding and being weak is that eventually we will get tired of
being the victim and always being on the loosing side….. not too long we will be the ones
victimizing and playing around.

Come to think of it: its just a cycle that was pre-made .

Simple: Its to be the victim or to victimize….

nOW yOU chOoSe Do You Want to Be the Prey or the predator.

as what lestat said in the movie queen of the damn….

COme Out cOme OUt where ever you are

ciao Guys!!!

Jomzki